Deserve him

Everything was going good
Till he broke up with me
I didn't deserve him
And he didn't deserve me
I started to cut
Because of family problems
He said I should stop
For him and me
But I liked seeing the blood
But not knowing it was mine
I messed it all up for myself
And lost someone who cared
He deserved to be
Treated right
Taken care of
Everything that I use to give him
Before I started to cut
I blew my life
Just for permit scares